You are Worthy

 

You are Worthy

You are worthy… who knew such a simple thought could be so earth shattering,  but it was. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was reading about weight loss which is already a tender spot for me. It said  I was worthy of the effort and result..I’ll say it again, worthy of the effort and the result…
I had read this before, but this time it was real, this time it hit me at my core and if I have learned anything in my years studying and practicing counseling, it is when you have such a raw reaction to a word, thought, color , scent , song, etc. it’s time to pay attention! Your subconscious is telling you something. It’s time to sit in that raw place, not just cover it up again.  It is time to experience what you need to experience so you can heal and become stronger so the wounded part of you can see the light of day instead of being hidden, stifled and buried.
 

What does “worthy” even mean??

So what does worthy even mean? Is there something particularly special about feeling worthy? According to the Oxford Dictionary, worthy is an adjective meaning deserving effort, attention, or respect… WHOA! Deserving effort… attention… and respect! Daaaaang….
When did I decide I wasn’t worthy? Because every logical piece of me says that I am. I am an independent, strong willed, determined individual… but for some reason, the word worthy hit me like a sucker punch to the kidneys. Throughout our lives, our sense of worth can take hits when we are bullied, rejected, hurt …I can’t identify a specific occurrence, but it can be cumulative and you don’t need to find the exact beginning in order to heal.
 

Something to Unpack

Worthy of the effort and results
Lets unpack that. (Sorry, sometimes the counselor can’t resist coming out to play!)
WORTHY is deserving effort, attention, and respect.
EFFORT is a vigorous or determined attempt.
RESULT is a consequence, effect, or outcome of something.
As this pertains to my weight loss journey, if you have ever tried to lose a few pounds, then you know it is no easy task. It takes determination and dedicated focus. A spur of the moment stop at Starbucks for a cinnamon roll frappuccino (yes! That is totally a thing! A glorious heaven sent cinnamon filled thing.) Really needs to be a thing of the past- or at least very infrequent. It requires a commitment to being healthier which means eating more veggies and getting more exercise.
If I am WORTHY of the EFFORT and the RESULT… then I deserve the vigorous and determined attempt to reach my desired outcome!! WOW! Putting in that effort is giving myself a gift, it isn’t torture. It is loving myself and proving to myself that I am worthy of that great effort. Going out for a jog, busting a move with some Zumba or finding my inner tranquility through yoga are all acts of LOVE!
This is a drop the mic moment here friends… a total paradigm shift! (workout equals love, not torture)
 

Memory Lane

Combing through my past I remember moments when I would tear up at sentimental gestures…I would always think, what is wrong with you? Are you surprised that someone cares this much? This should have been a clue to me, but I didn’t stop to investigate, I just brushed it off as “Over Sensitive Erin’s” crazy is showing again!
But what if somewhere in my core there is some damage I have never allowed to heal? Damage that is effecting the joy of feeling worthy of accomplishing certain goals?
The thought of such genuine sentiments  hit me at my injured core. The weak spot in my armor that was crudely patched so long ago.

 

Layin’ some truth on you…

Here is the truth… I am a daughter of the most high King- I am his heir and I am precious in his sight! He knows every hair on my head and collects every tear that I cry!  To him, I was worthy of dying on the cross to take away my sins, pain and suffering. The lies I chose to believe years ago are no longer welcome because I embrace the truth.
Not only that, but he did it all for you as well!
So I AM worthy!! I am worthy of the effort it takes to be healthy, of the time it takes for self care, and of achieving my goals! I am worthy of becoming the best me I can…

 

What lies have you been believing ?

Maybe you need to spend some time sitting in the discomfort so you can start healing. Try journaling, writing your thoughts. See where they lead you. Read some scripture and believe it when God says how precious you are! Reject the lies that have created bruised spots in your soul and embrace the truth that you are precious in His sight.  I wish you grace and peace on your journey.